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TOO MUCH!

December 31, 2018

Norway Summer of 2014

Writing this on Friday deep into having the cold on top of my exhaustion is messing with my mental being.

It feels like too much, too much sickness, too little strength, too little strength to help myself, too little life in me to be happy while being bed ridden. I start questioning myself and if anything was caused by my mental health but the reality is: I was freaking exhausted before the cold and having fever on top of exhaustion is a lot for any body, so my allergies go crazy as well because my immunsystem is simply down. I‘m trying to hold on to my saneness but it brings back ALL the trauma of being constanly sick and being home/bed ridden without being able to help myself. I feel helpless and I feel angy and it feels unfair but I can help myself ans everything will be fine in a few days and there is incledible medicine that can treat fever very well. Still urg!

Before this all cold craziness hit me I was reading ‚When the heart waits‘ by Sue Monk Kidd after hearing her story on Oprahs Supersoul Podcast and it has been inspiring. I‘m only a couple chapters in but its good. She talks about waiting:

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LIFE LATELY

December 28, 2018

This life lately will be short because I got knocked out by the cold last night.

On the eve before Christmas Eve Katharina and I went to the Cologne Philharmony to listen to a christmas choir concert. It was a nice start to our Christmas days 🙂

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OH HOW SCARY JOY CAN FEEL…

December 26, 2018

Something interesting happened 4 weeks ago – it all of the sudden clicked and I knew what I am supposed to study and where to go with my life!

Nothing has kept me more up at night or has made me question myself than realizing that where I am at right now, what I am set to have my diploma in is not what brings me joy or brings me life. It was this weird thing of ‚I can still imagine myself studying and working in that field. I know I am and will be good at and the people at my school are seriously awesome human beings‘ but at the same time it gave me so much anxiety and imagining to go back there in September felt like something I was dreading. At the same I had absolutely NO CLUE what else I was supposed to study or work in/at and that left me standing there very confused and frankly very scared. What if its me? What if I’ll never be able to have enough energy and life in me to work/study joyfully? What if from here on everything will be only half ok and I will always have to fight against anxiety and fear of failing and the fear of having it all taken away without me being able to have a say in it?

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LABELS ~ Life, Pain/Trauma

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MERRY CHRISTMAS

December 24, 2018

Wishing you a very merry Christmas!

Lots of love,

madita

ps. Come back for a new post on Wednesday ♥️

LABELS ~ Random Collection

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LIFE LATELY

December 21, 2018

On Wednesday last week we went to Schwei (by Oldenburg Rodenkirchen) up in northern Germany basically in the middle of nowhere and had a team weekend/couple of days with friends. We talked, we laughed, we worked, let the dog run around outside and spent time around the fire <3 for me it was energy consuming but we still had a good time!

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LIFE MADE ME EXHAUSTED…

December 10, 2018

I’m exhausted to the point that I don’t even know how to describe it or put it into words. It feels like I am drained to the point that I can’t find my strength again without something coming from something else than me. VIEW POST

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LIFE LATELY

December 7, 2018

“Have I told you about the tension of opposites?” he says.

The tension of opposites?

“Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you  are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn´t. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted. A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle.”

Sounds like a wrestling match, I say.

“A wrestling match” He laughs. “Yes you could describe life that way.”

So which side wins, I ask?

“Which side wins?” He smiles at me, the crinkled eyes, the crooked teeth.

“Love wins. Love always wins.”

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