I had this epiphany last night of “ohh this is why I got headaches and not back pain/gut problems”. It really discouraging if you are trying to figure out why you have all this pain when someone goes “oh you must think too much”. Like what? that seems a little too easy.
There are all kinds of different types of pain and reasons for it. Nicole Sachs talks about how stuck negative emotionals can cause real physical pain. Which has been SO true for me! Pain is always always there to help us and never to harm us. It actually tries to protect us. Even though it almost always feels like it hinders us from exactly the thing that we need/want/enjoy. Why though does it not always show up in the same place? Always the back or gut or head but is different from person to person?
It goes where I will notice it! I had all these negative stuck emotions, hurt und trauma in me but was so unaware of it and was truly, with all my selfawareness that I possesed, not seeing it. So pain showed up and all of the sudden I was forced to look at that pain and really myself. Which at first will look like the reason for my pain is a physical cause but if I am lucky I will figure it out sooner rather than later that the cause is something else.
I was always big on my gut feeling/intuition but everything I excelt at in life at that point was driven by my head and my thinking. Take that away it stopped me dead in my tracks almost literally. My emotional pain was screaming at me “NOTICE ME” but I still went “I DID NOTHING WRONG. MY LIFE WAS SO GOOD, WHY DO YOU TAKE EVERYTHING AWAY NOW? WHAT IS THE LESSON TO LEARN HERE?”
It forced me to stop, put everything on hold and look at the pain that I was unintentionally trying SO HARD to not see. It took me years of utmost pain but once I grasped this concept I was “oh this was there all this time?”
For someone else it might me the gut and you start having food allergies and because of that you lack the capacity to concentrate or strenght to do your work – you are forced to look deeper into what wants to be seen and healed.
It seems like a logical thing but I really had this moment of “ohhh I see” yesterday so I wanted to share it 😀