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LIFE LATELY

This life lately will be short because I got knocked out by the cold last night.

On the eve before Christmas Eve Katharina and I went to the Cologne Philharmony to listen to a christmas choir concert. It was a nice start to our Christmas days 🙂

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OH HOW SCARY JOY CAN FEEL…

Something interesting happened 4 weeks ago – it all of the sudden clicked and I knew what I am supposed to study and where to go with my life!

Nothing has kept me more up at night or has made me question myself than realizing that where I am at right now, what I am set to have my diploma in is not what brings me joy or brings me life. It was this weird thing of ‚I can still imagine myself studying and working in that field. I know I am and will be good at and the people at my school are seriously awesome human beings‘ but at the same time it gave me so much anxiety and imagining to go back there in September felt like something I was dreading. At the same I had absolutely NO CLUE what else I was supposed to study or work in/at and that left me standing there very confused and frankly very scared. What if its me? What if I’ll never be able to have enough energy and life in me to work/study joyfully? What if from here on everything will be only half ok and I will always have to fight against anxiety and fear of failing and the fear of having it all taken away without me being able to have a say in it?

And then all of the sudden it clicked..VIEW POST

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Wishing you a very merry Christmas!

Lots of love,

madita

ps. Come back for a new post on Wednesday ♥️

LIFE LATELY

On Wednesday last week we went to Schwei (by Oldenburg Rodenkirchen) up in northern Germany basically in the middle of nowhere and had a team weekend/couple of days with friends. We talked, we laughed, we worked, let the dog run around outside and spent time around the fire <3 for me it was energy consuming but we still had a good time!

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LIFE MADE ME EXHAUSTED…

I’m exhausted to the point that I don’t even know how to describe it or put it into words. It feels like I am drained to the point that I can’t find my strength again without something coming from something else than me. VIEW POST

LIFE LATELY

“Have I told you about the tension of opposites?” he says.

The tension of opposites?

“Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you  are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn´t. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted. A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle.”

Sounds like a wrestling match, I say.

“A wrestling match” He laughs. “Yes you could describe life that way.”

So which side wins, I ask?

“Which side wins?” He smiles at me, the crinkled eyes, the crooked teeth.

“Love wins. Love always wins.”

TUESDAYS WITH MORRIE

 


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LIFE LATELY

I made a new door wreath and with that Christmas time has come at our home ♥️

After making that wreath the Christmas decorating bug got me and I made more…

I´m planning on putting them up in our windows but am in need of a good ribbon to do it, so until that they are sitting there

I enjoyed a lot of time with Ilse last week – inside and outside 🙂 🙂 most of it not in bed lol

I had one night were I felt sad and like crap and just emotional and Albrecht wasnt here so I went to the grocery store and thats what I came home with

For the longest time I wanted upper cabinets above our kitchen sink but a shelve was cheaper and easier and faster and this week it finally happened thanks to Albrecht and I AM IN LOVE! It changes the whole feeling of the kitchen!

And last but not least I manage to suprise Annalena with a cup she feel in love with! Sometimes you just need to buy something extra special for  a friend thats a little over priced because we would not buy it ourselve! Nothing better than hearing her suprised excited voice on the phone

Sending you lots of love on this Friday!

Love, Madita

HAPPY MONDAY – Filling in the blanks…

I was talking to a friend the other day and it became so clear how we all tend to just share the good or paint a picture of someone else’s life and forget to fill in the blanks. The blanks that are the struggle, the hard and scary moments, the courage it took to get to that moment. The pain, the grief or simply doubt. You can see achievements and moments of highs but we all have doubts and experience hard times that test us.VIEW POST