“In deinem Lichte lernte ich zu lieben,
In deiner Schönheit fand ich Poesie,
Du tanzest dort in meinem Herzen wo niemand sonst dich sehen kann.”
Oh how wonderful and scary you can be! I would think that feeling nothing or feeling broken must be the scariest thing but oh how wrong I was. To experience love and to let my being be filled with you means opening up, trusting, living in relationship with the Universe and risking to feel “it all”. To not being able to control but rather let you lead.
I thought I had lost you and all of the sudden, just like I felt you disappeared, you re-appear like buds in spring. Relationships that I thought had been lost and had once been utterly broken are all of the sudden a bloom of true pure love that never disappeared.
All of the sudden you teach me that I am loveable. That I have been loveable all along and that I have been loved all this time.
To freely love and to allow myself to not have love be a source of pain and mixed emotions but just a true genuine source of light and everything wonderful is life changing.
I wish I would hear you louder on days where I am full of hurt and pain and self doubt and anger and shame and when I don’t even see the possibility of love but thank you for sending people that show me that you are always unconditionally.