I´m not going to lie the last few weeks life has been hard! And I would rather not write about and shout it into the universe for the whole world to read. But I promised myself to keep up this blog. Instead of disappearing until my world is nice and easy again I will just share my life with you – and still see the good in all the craziness.
Uni start was hard.The People in my are really nice and wonderful human beings – totally people I love being around and spending time with but at the same time I woke up with a headache EVERY SINGLE DAY. While everybody was meeting people and going to parties and loving life I was trying to make it to the next day without my head exploiding. I did not want to miss the first week of classes and I feared not being able to meet people. I didn´t have the energy to do anything besides going to school and going back home to sleep. On top of that Albrecht was still in Stuttgart and our guest room/office not set up. So it was me all alone on our big bed every single night.
And I wish I could say that it all slowed down and my head is fine and I´m doing awesome but thats not the case. I still have a headache every single day and I am still figuring out my life in this new normal and my limit. And dealing with headaches while also being able to enjoy studying – how does one do that? And also having the energy to meet people and do something?
On top of that situation we learned a week ago that we need to move again. I have a dust allergy – which kinda sounds like a good excuse to not being able to clean the house haha but I do really have it 😉 its not really severe so I wasnt really worried about. But we learned the hard way that carpet, at least the carpet that is one of our rooms, does not work for me. I have the worst allergies. As soon as I go to bed my nose starts running and it turnes into a whole situation with Albrecht being really annoyed (rightfully so) and I can´t breath because off all the dust in the air. We even moved our bed RIGHT to the window. My head would basically stick out the window while sleeping haha it was bad! For every one involed! And since then there have also been a few things with the landlord which made it pretty clear that we wanted and needed to move. And on the same day we also learned that Albrecht could not work at his job anymore. Things were not working out last week haha
So this is life right now. I have a headache every day, was sick last week (thank God for parents who take you in and take care of you!), we are on the hunt for a flat (which seems to be an impossible mission) and Albrecht is trying to figure out his job situation and what he wants to do next.
I´m thinking that in a few years we will look back on this time and laugh about it and remember the time everything came at once and life was hard for a second but we are also already closer because of it. We are in this together and in the end that is was truly matters and I do feel that! And for that I am so grateful!! Life is hard right now. Life with constant/chronic pain is hard and I still don´t know how to grasp that but I also see and feel how lucky we are. We have so many blessings in our lifes they are not forgotten!
I hope life is kind to you today and if not I´m sending you lots and lots and lots of love! Do something that brings a smile to your face, even just a little.